Seaside Magic

It is not uncommon for people to state that they belong to a certain religion and yet hold one or more views that are contrary to what he or she believes. I can tell you that I am a Christian and that I belong to a certain denomination. Yet, my belief system, is a synthesis of ancient Greek philosophy, post-modern existentialism plus some other Eastern thoughts besides the Christian creed. Yes, it does look more like a case of confused identity! Besides, there is so much more to learn in life. I guess, the best method to reveal who you really are, your thoughts and belief system, is to write them down, as what I am doing now online.

In fact, this blog is meant to be a spirituality blog, designed to help people with spiritual and emotional needs. It does not represent the views of any organised religion, as I do not wish to unintentionally offend anyone or cause misunderstanding. I also do not want to project a 'holier than thou' image of myself. Controversies on religious matters have often led to an 'us versus them' mentality which is very divisive. I see my attachment to spirituality as something of a passinate pursuit - believing that God is everywhere and only when you truly believe are you capable to connect to Him. As I have mentioned in my earlier post, imagine yourself standing at a beach and looking up to the beautiful evening sky. At that moment, you would feel that you are really not that significant and that the universe is much, much larger than you. As a fellow traveller in this short life, I can say that much of life is about suffering, although it is also only temporary. This is evidenced by the fact that many people in parts of this world are still living in poverty. A child dies every 5 seconds due to poverty related illnesses. Every minute, a child or newborn is diagnosed with HIV. I dream of one day when we will enter into a world without poverty and diseases.

Where do all the evil stuff in this world come from? Much as I would like to avoid talking about it, there is, at the back of my mind, an admission that we, because of our human nature, have an intrinsic dark side in us. This dark side is something that many of us would not want to come out and openly confess about. However, do not be afraid to bring it before God; His Light will illuminate us and overcome our sins, our weaknesses and imperfections. There is no point being pesimistic or have an obsessive guilty conscience about our sinful nature as if we are born to be wicked by nature as some people would want us to believe. That's why sometimes we hear people say that 'children are all snakes', or that if a man meets a misfortune, that's because of his hidden sinful past.

Therefore, because of who man is, when one comes before the Almighty, who is benevolent and all Light, there is at once, a feeling of fear as well as a sense of the sublime. We tremble as we worship God. More than just a fiction for children, here is an excerpt from the book The Wind in the Willow, by Kenneth Grahame which illustrates perfectly what I mean:

`This is the place of my song-dream, the place the music played to me,' whispered the Rat, as if in a trance. `Here, in this holy place, here if anywhere, surely we shall find Him!'

Then suddenly the Mole felt a great Awe fall upon him, an awe that turned his muscles to water, bowed his head, and rooted his feet to the ground. It was no panic terror--indeed he felt wonderfully at peace and happy--but it was an awe that smote and held him and, without seeing, he knew it could only mean that some august Presence was very, very near. With difficulty he turned to look for his friend. and saw him at his side cowed, stricken, and trembling violently. And still there was utter silence in the populous bird-haunted branches around them; and still the light grew and grew.

Perhaps he would never have dared to raise his eyes, but that, though the piping was now hushed, the call and the summons seemed still dominant and imperious. He might not refuse, were Death himself waiting to strike him instantly, once he had looked with mortal eye on things rightly kept hidden. Trembling he obeyed, and raised his humble head; and then, in that utter clearness of the imminent dawn, while Nature, flushed with fulness of incredible colour, seemed to hold her breath for the event, he looked in the very eyes of the Friend and Helper; saw the backward sweep of the curved horns, gleaming in the growing daylight; saw the stern, hooked nose between the kindly eyes that were looking down on them humourously, while the bearded mouth broke into a half-smile at the corners; saw the rippling muscles on the arm that lay across the broad chest, the long supple hand still holding the pan-pipes only just fallen away from the parted lips; saw the splendid curves of the shaggy limbs disposed in majestic ease on the sward; saw, last of all, nestling between his very hooves, sleeping soundly in entire peace and contentment, the little, round, podgy, childish form of the baby otter. All this he saw, for one moment breathless and intense, vivid on the morning sky; and still, as he looked, he lived; and still, as he lived, he wondered.

'Rat!' he found breath to whisper, shaking. `Are you afraid?'

`Afraid?' murmured the Rat, his eyes shining with unutterable love. `Afraid! Of HIM? O, never, never! And yet--and yet-- O, Mole, I am afraid!'

Then the two animals, crouching to the earth, bowed their heads and did worship.

It's That Pagan Christmas Tree Again

It's that most wonderful time of the year again. Today I'm going to reveal my rebellious side on the issue of celebrating a unique event in a religiously correct manner. I'm talking about Christmas, of course, which for many people will mark the beginning of a week long holiday all the way to New Year's Day. And despite all the ground rules telling me to look at this Christian calendar in a true and reflective Christian perspective, I'm still going to celebrate it in full pagan style, as I've always done so in the past.

The meaning of Christmas, to me and I'm sure to the majority of people of different faiths in this country, is nothing without the Christmas tree, which happened to be have originated from Pagan traditions. In fact, this year I'm going to light up a red Xmas tree for my house party. Then, I'm going to do something crazy - I'll get myself drunk and volunteer to be Santa at the shopping complex. (Don't worry - I'm still a sober doctor). The reality is, if we try to take away the tree, the gifts (and giving), the caroling, the food and alcohol, the pre-Christmas shopping and Santa Claus, we don't have much to celebrate. It's like having a dead tree without the lighting.

Going back to history, the early Christians in Roman times chose to celebrate Jesus' birthday in Dec 25th although it coincided with the pagan holiday celebrating the birth of their Sun God. So, we shouldn't blame anyone for putting pagan elements into a Christian event. If we try to 'purify' this festival by extracting the worldly pagan themes, this attempt will fail. The commercialisation of Christmas has a long, long tradition, so much so that it has become sentimental to so many people. There wouldn't be Christmas if we do not hear Christmas tunes in the shopping mall.

No, I'm not trying to downplay efforts by the church to spread the true message of the Nativity. I'll still be going to church on Christmas Eve. My daughter will be performing in a High School Musical dance number (I think a lot of teens are into HSM nowadays) and I will enjoy singing the Christmas hymms. I am looking forward to the message from the pastor. Yesterday, I was pleasantly surprised to hear carollers singing contemporary Christian worship songs like 'Give Thanks' and 'In Christ Alone' instead of just the usual traditional carols at a popular crowded shoping mall. This, at least to me, shows true diversity and extraordinary tolerance in our multireligious society as we move forward and try to understand one another. At the same time, we showed the foreigners, the Western and Arabian shoppers who happened to be there, how different but harmonious we can be. You have to be there to appreciate the moment.

So I don't see what's all the fuss about not celebrating the meaning of Christmas. Many people outside the Christian faith however, tend to take Christmas as a time for shopping, partying and revelling. Let's not complain about it. In fact, since Christmas is rooted in non - Christian tradition, let all people from all faiths take this opportunity and come together to celebrate this occasion in the spirit of Muhibbah and with peace and joy in their hearts. Don't go home to your pity party this Christmas - let's share this together. Let us be one voice.

The World Is Flattened / Your Real Home

Today's article in the Tech section of NST paints a rosy picture of the outsourcing industry as Malaysia is considered one of the more preferred country for this sort of business in the world (study done by Frost and Sullivan). Although the job is stressful and highly competitive, as was told to me by my patients, outsourcing really took off with the advent of the internet and fibreoptic cabling which sparked a new collaboration between America and other third world countries, in particular India. It is mostly taken up by young people, who do not mind working nights. Training for the post is stringent. Although they speak English but in their own accent, they were trained to speak in American or British accents, depending on which country they were assigned to. Some will take up common Western names like Thomas and Paul and Janet to help them better relate to their clients. When I have problems with my Ipaq PocketPC, I will just call up the toll free HP service centre based in Bangalore, India and the technicians there, who caters for clients in Msia, Singapore and the Philippines are usually very forthcoming in providing their assistance. What impressed me most is that they will just call me back a few days later to check if everything is ok (perhaps I should do the same for my patients). As in many Asian culture, many of these employees will apportion part of their salaries to their parents, while some will take day classes to aim for higher qualification and hopefully better pay one day.

We must be prepared to change and adapt, so says Thomas Friedman, the author of No.1 bestseller The World Is Flat. Globalisation is the trend because the world is shrinking. The playing field is flattened, and competition is thrown wide open. We must be reminded that multinational companies, like greedy individuals, will push for lower cost and increased productivity. Certain countries like China and Vietnam are much preferred because their goods are cheaper due to abundant and cheap labour. Even some traditional business in America, like the cotton mills, are closing down because of this globalisation effect.

Ever since the fall of the Berlin Wall (and communism), the world had to depend on only one system, capitalism. Unfortunately, capitalism has its nasty flaws. It can make some people very rich, and some very poor. However, people who are ignorant will not survive, especially if they are slow to respond to market forces, are not competitive and not in-sync with global trends. Even in the beautiful city of Dalian, China where major corporations like Microsoft, HP, Sony and Dell have set up bases there, university grads, especially those in the IT line, were told to take up a year of study of English to improve communication.

In the medical line, Mr Friedman cited an example of the use of high speed internet connection to transmit radiological images from a hospital in America to a country half the world away, with a 12 hour time difference, to be interpreted by their on call radiologist who can provide an urgent diagnosis when most of the radiologists in America are sleeping at night. I think the same could be done for blood test and pathological specimen report. However, in all these cases, clinical correlation based on physical findings of the patient is very important. Furthermore, the administrators must address the question of online information security.

So, where do we fit in this globalised world? Globalisation doesn't mean going to a Western country and having to eat Western food everyday. In fact, its exactly the opposite. With outsourcing and homesourcing, the workers can stay put, keep in touch with family and friends and continue to enjoy local food and entertainment at a fraction of a cost. Its not like we are katak di bawah tempurung. In fact, Friedman says that if all the frogs living in their particular well were to be able to connect from one well to another, they will have greater feedom.

And, while we continue to seek out greener pastures to improve our living conditions, we must not be too comfortable with life in this world. Our real home is heaven (not a heavenly home but really in heaven!). The emotional believer will say that heaven is so real to him or her now while the sceptic will ask 'Izzit really? Are we anywhere closer to heaven?'

I am just taking the middle ground. There will always be questions like Is there really a heaven? Who is going there and what will it be like? What will I do there? Why should I think about it while I'm still on earth? I believe if you have a deep relationship with God, you will sometimes want to think about it. In the meantime, I have just browsed thru the book written by C.S. Lewis called The Great Divorce about a group of people who took a day trip by bus to the kingdom of heaven. Here is a glimpse of what they saw about how solid and real heaven is, thanks to Lewis' wonderful imagination:

I got out. The light and coolness that drenched me were like those of summer morning, early morning a minute or two before the sunrise, only that there was a certain difference......

It was the light, the grass, the trees that were different; made of some different substance, so much solider than things in our country......

I saw people coming to meet us. Because they were bright I saw them while they were still very distant ...... the earth shook under their tread as their strong feet sank into the wet turf. A tiny haze and a sweet smell went up where they had crushed the grass and scattered the dew ...... the robes did not disguise the massive grandeur of muscle and the radiant smoothness of flesh ...... no one struck me as being of any particular age. One gets glimpses even in our country of that which is ageless - heavy thought in the face of an infant, and frolic childhood in that of an old man. Here it was all like that.

Work in progress - Your Real Home

Dawn of a new day

This blog does not provide commentary on the latest issues as published in the mainstream news about the political landscape of our country. However, looking at the reaction of the people from other blogs, I think it is indeed sad and somewhat alarming. Some people will say, why worry about it? Why not just live the good life? Because your country's future is, after all, your own future as well. Anyway, it is good that people are talking and blogging about it because it helps to keep some public figures on their toes. The pen is indeed mightier than the sword, or any other weapon for that matter!

Recently, I was rereading the works of the famous Russian writer who was sent to hard labour camp , Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn, whose words continue to speak to people through the ages especially to our present time. Here, we have a responsible citizen of the former Soviet Union, a Nobel prize winner in literature in 1970, who had set about to write about the suffering of his people and what life was in the extreme condition of hard labour where 20 million people have perished. In his novels, especially One Day In The Life Of Ivan Denisovich and the historical account The Gulag Archipelago, as well as the period of internal exile after his release from camp Cancer Ward, we were given a truthful portrayal of the police state rule which had stripped the population of the most basic of human rights.

And while he was living in the West when he left Russia, we would expect him to recommend the Western system with its free society as a model for a nation that had suppressed her people for decades. However, he had a different opinion. In his acceptance speech for an honorary degree at Harvard University in 1978, he talked, in his usual noble language, about the rights and wrongs of the Western society. For the sake of this blog, I would just pick up a few pointers which I feel are relevant:

The West had utter contempt for justice

The American people had taken their freedom for granted. While he had been living in a nation which was ruled by terror, he saw that the majority of the people in America do not have proper regard for the law, but only the letters of the law. He saw that the people do not have intrinsic moral values, but only care about the legality of the matter. Therefore, it had become the most litigious society in the world, with all its lawsuits and counter lawsuits. All that concerned them is to fight for what is legally theirs. Do we see a similar rising trend here?

The society is guided by money

Living in a capitalistic, democratic society, people follow the values that lead to materialism and commercialism. People are judged not by their hardwork and talent, but by how much they earn. Even the media are not interested in reporting the truth, but thrives on sensationalising an issue so that their paper can sell. He said America does not have the moral will power to lead the world because the people are preoccupied with their materialistic gain.

God continues to be marginalised

Since they have become so much in love with wealth, God is without meaning in the lives of ordinary individuals. Even with the brilliant technological progress in the West, including space exploration, no one could redeem the West from their moral poverty if their people do not believe that there is an intrinsic evil nature in man,which tends to despiritualise and dehumanise a person. Solzhenitsyn believed that in his old Russian culture, which is a God believing culture, and through the extreme sufferings of his people, lay his own salvation. This is one of the reasons, I believe, why he had returned to Russia in 1994, despite being deprived of his citizenship earlier.

The hardships of his people had brought about a spiritual strength that America and other western civilisation cannot compare with.

The full text of his speech can be found here.

Like a tormented prisoner, Solzhenitsyn spoke the truth. Here is an excerpt from his first novel One Day In The Life Of Ivan Denisovich, followed by a few quotes from this living legend.

"Senka was a quiet, luckless fellow. One of his eardrums had been smashed in '41. Then he was captured; he escaped, was recaptured and was sent to Buchenwald. There he evaded death by a miracle and now he was serving his time here quietly. If you show your pride too much, he said, you're lost.

There was truth in that. Better to growl and submit. If you were stubborn, they will break you.

Alyosha sat silent, his face buried in his hands. Praying.

Shukhov ate his bread down to his very fingers, keeping only a little bit of bare crust, the half-moon-shaped top of the loaf - because no spoon is as good for scraping a bowl of porridge clean as a bread crust. He wrapped the crust in his cloth and slipped it into his inside pocket for dinner, buttoned himself up against the cold and prepared for work."

"Do not pursue what is illusory - property and position: all that is gained at the expense of your nerves decade after decade and can be confiscated in one fell night. Live with a steady superiority over life - don't be afraid of misfortune, and do not yearn after happiness; it is after all, all the same: the bitter doesn't last forever, and the sweet never fills the cup to overflowing" - quote

"Violence does not live alone and is not capable of living alone. It is necessarily interwoven with falsehood" - quote

"I am of course confident that I will fulfill my tasks as a writer in all circumstances- from my grave even more successfully and more irrefutably than in my lifetime. No one can bar the road to truth, and to advance its cause I am prepared to accept even death. But may it be that repeated lessons will finally teach us not to stop the writer's pen during his lifetime? At no time has this ennobled our history" - quote

Work in progress

Work in progress